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- Acruided Self Denial
- After
- Always there
- Appearance
- Automobile
- Beast of Depresion
- Better
- Birth of a Child
- Black
- Chaotic Dellusions
- Curiousity
- Destined For Another
- Emotional Barrier
- Enough
- Fallen
- ForeSight
- Forever
- Hate
- Heart
- I
- Imagine
- Inside Light
- Leave them all
- Light
- Limb
- My World
- Night
- Nomad
- Nothing
- Ocean
- Race
- Rachel
- Ready
- senior
- Sensation Throughout
- Senses
- Sight
- Silence
- Sky
- Special
- Survival
- Technology
- Two_Men
- Unablivious
- Unfeeling
- Unknown
Fallen
Fallen
Grasping at the skies
I grope for anything
That my hands could wrap
Around in this bleak attempt
To cause my death to come
To a halt.
Seeing it all fade
In a speed greater than
One could ever possibly
Imagine I now know my faults
The faults of myself
That now cause my own death.
Why did I allow you in
Why did I give you warmth
Why did I give you my love
And never imagine the consequences
That would surely send
Me into this fallen state.
You took my heart
And shoved it way down into
My gut to show me
That no matter what I did
It would never fulfill
Your hunger for what I did not have.
You kicked me in
My soul to show
Me that I am nothing
More than the whipping
Boy that you had conditioned
Me into being.
You spit in my face
With a hatred of twenty
Hitlers all screaming
They're evil purities
Knowing perfectly well
That words are more powerful than daggers.
And in a final rage
Your words hurl me
Out of this life
In a constant struggle
To regain some form of sanity
Now that I can regain nothing.
Falling from myself
I see how you wanted it,
You wanted to shred
My heart and make it so
That I would never love another
And merely fall for only you
Until the day that I died.
How you were mistaken
For as I have not yet
Found something to grab hold of
I shall one day find
Someone that will save me
And then I will encompass that safety
And no longer fall.
